I am still down but maybe that’s okay.
Me:What should I do right now?
Jesus: What do you want to do?
Me:I want to talk a little with Dr. Karen.
Jesus: But you’re a little depressed at having to wait so long, and you wish you had a clearer idea of what to do while you wait?
Me: Exactly.
Jesus: Plus you’re still feeling down about what Bryan said this morning.
Me: Yeah.
Jesus: And you wish you could have that hope for her that borders confidence, like supreme knowledge.
Me: Yeah, Jason talked about that.
Jesus: Do you trust me?
Me: Yes. More today than yesterday.
Jesus: Good. Then keep it up. You’re doing well.
Me: Really? Then why do I feel so down?
Jesus: Because this is all so new to you. Because your hurts, habits, and hang-ups are all so fresh, but Bud you have let so much go, you have given me so much, and I love you. I love you. I love you Bud. Do you trust that you have value because I say you have value?
Me: Yeah. I guess.
Jesus: Hurts, habits, hang-ups, sin Bud, just anything that keeps us apart. You’re doing so well. Trust me.
Me: Are you really saying this?
Jesus: What did I tell you about second guesses? No more of that. Courage.
Me: Okay.
Jesus: Deep breath. Relax. You’ll get sometime with the Dr. tomorrow.
Me: What should I do now?
Jesus: Go home. Get that book shelf set up like you want it. Do some laundry. Clean the house. Do some exercises-don’t worry about going to the rec room just get physical for a while. Cook a nice dinner. Watch an hour or so of television. Read a novel. Go to bed early. And smile. I love you, I’m with you, I’ve got good plans for you. Trust me.
Me: Okay.